I received still another letter, informing me that it was thought best to defer the publication of No. 11 until I could write out that which I had been shown in regard to the Health Institute, as those in charge of that enterprise stood in great want of means and needed the influence of my testimony to move the brethren. I then wrote out a portion of that which was shown me in regard to the Institute, but could not get out the entire subject because of pressure of blood to the brain. Had I thought that No. 12 would be so long delayed, I should not in any case have sent that portion of the matter contained in No. 11. I supposed that after resting a few days I could again resume my writing. But to my great grief I found that the condition of my brain made it impossible for me to write. The idea of writing testimonies, either general or personal, was given up, and I was in continual distress because I could not write them. {1T 577.1} | |
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Jeg fik endnu andre breve der fortalte mig at det måske var det bedste at udsætte udgivelsen af nr 11, indtil jeg kunne skrive det tilfulde, som jeg var blevet vist om sundhedsinstitutionen, da dem som havde ansvaret for denne virksomhed manglede midler og behøvede påvirkningen fra mine vidnesbyrd til at røre brødrenes holdning. Jeg skrev da en del ud af det som var blevet vist mig om instituttet, men kunne ikke få hele emnet ud på grund af blodtrykket til hjernen. Havde jeg vidst at nr 12 ville blive forsinket så længe, skulle jeg ikke under nogen omstændigheder den del som var i nr 11. Jeg troede at efter at have hvilet i nogle få dage, kunne jeg genoptage min skrivning. Men til min store sorg, fandt jeg at min hjernens tilstand, gjorde det umulig for mig at skrive. Ideen med at skrive vidnesbyrd, hvad enten det er generelt eller personligt blev opgivet og jeg var i konstant pine fordi jeg ikke kunne skrive dem. |